KELSEY - Happy Birthday Sweet Neice

5-30-10

Birds are singing your song
The skies are offering you a cool breeze
Sunshine rays are just for you
A piece of my heart is what you have

So on your Birthday
I look to the heavens
ask our Lord to hear your wishes
The whole world is what you deserve
Full of love, hugs and dreams to come true...
I wish it all for you my sweet neice

Most of all, I give you my heart
The part that gives you peace!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELSEY GIRL

I love you more than the world my lil angel!

Grief

This is a beautiful poem written by one of my sister Lisa's dear friend Stacy. Lisa sent it to me because she knew I would love it and appreciate it. I did! I do. She wrote it about someone who has experienced more grief than anyone who should. I know she didn't write it about me, but I felt like it was.....

Lord, words I do not have
Prayers I know not how to pray
Answers to hard questions I don't know what to say
Heaven is a long time to wait
To see the one's we love at Heaven's gate.
In the mean time, until that glorious day comes
Renew. Revive. Reveal. Relieve.
Give this woman strength and courage to face another day
To ask for your guidance along the way.
Show her what healing looks like
She longs to encourage others but isn't ready for the mike
Send her chosen people who will walk with her
To share this next season of life.
Free her from sorrow, deliver her from strife.
You are her God, she is your girl
I know your hand is extended
May she take it and twirl.
Dance over her. Sing her a new song.
Time on earth isn't forever
When compared to eternity, reunion won't be long....

For more on Stacy's inspirations: http://showersfrommyheart.blogspot.com/2010/05/grief.html

Honey's Birthday brings joy!

Honeys B-day ~ 12-31-09...
When Chad told me this last night as we sat in the bedroom. My first thought was "Cool, a New Years Birthday!" As my mind computed and thought about this date for a few moments..... I excitedly said out loud, "That was Mary's wedding anniversary"! Hmmmmm!

Just then, Honey stared up at the wedding painting above our bed then started looking all around me ~ very curiously! She never looked at my face, only above my head and around me. It was as if she saw something. She started to jump at me - around me! Her jumping was not her normal affectionate way (all over me). It was all around me. She was strangely calm in her efforts. It was actually very sweet!
Chad just sat there in utter amazement. He said he'd never seen anything like this. I felt a divine spiritual awareness! I felt Marys presence. Chad got chills and felt it too!
A fun peace came over me. This went on for about 10 minutes. I felt like I was blessed with a visit. It was as if Mary was excited that I figured out the connection of Honeys Birthday and the significance of that date to her.

The visit didn't end there.....

Before we went to bed, I looked at the top corner of our bookshelf where "Markelett" the Webkin monkey sits and said to Chad, "Remember Markelett? It's been a while huh?".
(Markelett was the beginning of my connection to Kelsey & Brett after Mary passed away.)

......Chad had goten up at 4:30 a.m. and as he was leaving the bathroom, he saw Markelett on the floor in front of the bookshelf. He was bewildered! Honey can't reach the shelf and Boo has no interest in the stuffed animal.
I woke up 4 hours later to walk Honey and saw this too. I was half asleep, but couldn't believe my eyes. I took Honey outside as I was still in a sleepy, amazed daze. I was standing in the grass pondering these amazing occurrences when up in the sky I heard a song of a bird.
It didn't sound like the 'oh so familiar chirp of my cardinal', but when I looked up to the point of my roof, the brightest red cardinal was singing away!

What a way to end and start my days!!!

Mary - always on my mind and never far away..... how lucky am I?

Playing dress up

These were the days. Woodway Square Memories. 1995-1998! The best times, the best neighborhood, the best apartment. I had my own walk in closet that would fit a twin bed, dresser and nightstand (if I tried) .... hehe! It was fun filling it and even more fun playing dress up with my lil sisters. They would come over and say "Let's go through Jeni's closet".....

Mary in the beautiful cardinal red, me in the powdery blue and

Lisa in the hot to trot black dress with rhinestones!

Mary had on hot red 3" heels to match, I was in my 2 1/2" clear healed with fainted gold straps & Lisa, well....we put her in lower black heels. She is the tall one of us!

Everyone came to our home for all occassions. Every weekend was filled with family and friends fun!

Awwww ~ Woodway Square! So many memories to Cherish....

for all of us!

Interesting quote

There is an alchemy in sorrow. It can be transmuted into wisdom, which, if it does not bring joy, can yet bring happiness.
Pearl Buck (1892 - 1973)

Loving Brother - this Blog Post is for You!

What a sweet brother I have..... knowing I love stars, purple, lavender, green & yellow ~ He found this card and made this bracelet - YES, made this beautiful bracelet. I love it and cherish it more than ever. I wore it the other day and thought of him & his girlfriend Amanda all day!




BTW: I Love the Kenny Chesney T-shirt & the phone call you made to me at his concert singing Mary's favorite song!

Memories to Cherish baby brother!

Loving our Mary Forever!!

Mary loved you so much and I know you loved her too.

This is a great picture of you and Mary (mama Mary) dad took at the

Riverwalk in San Antonio....

Happy Birthday today Davey ~

(May 16th ~ 1976 - I remember the day you were born - what a happy happy day!)

Broken Heart

How to live with a broken heart:

Always remember the good times.
Mend the break with gratitude of the memories.
Take the good that your loved one has taught you and put it into action.

This will keep them alive and their love will live on through you.
They had a purpose here and through us, their energy of good will help to make the world a better place.
Know that they are always with you.

If your truly believe this, you will see... Signs will begin to surface in God's creations.
Your heart will feel lighter and your faith will begin to fill the hole.
Love who we still have.... They need love too!

Knowing that in the end, there really is no end.

It is truly only the beginning and we will be together again...
Forever and ever....

Amen!

(I miss you everyday Mary)

Mother's Day Red

Sunday, May 9th, 2010.... Mothers Day!

Mother's day is always a sweet day ~ a day to celebrate the wonderfulness of being a mother.

This day reminds me alot of Mary because for as long as I can remember, I can always hear her say "I can't wait to be a Mommy ~ I'm gonna be Mama Mary!" That was her dream!

That dream came true. Two lil blessings Kelsey & Brett!

And what a wonderful mommy she was !!

I got a little sad this Mothers day ~ thinking about how Kelsey & Brett must feel missing their mommy for 2 years now and what they have to go through trying to live with a new stepmom.

As I was driving out of my apartment community to run a Mothers Day errand, in the middle of a tree, a bright red cardinal was peeking out at me!

It stayed long enough for me to capture it in this picture.

I love you Mama Mary & wish you a Happy Mothers Day everyday

because everyday was mothers day for you!